i'm feeling rather down. maybe subconsciously i'm crying for attention, i don't know.

i just don't get why do we have to put up a front, a face, a facade, an act. isn't it about who we really are? why do we have to hide from it or pretend otherwise.

i really hate all this pretending. i hate trying not to care. i really do care!

i feel a lot of things for me is a one sided street. i can't blame anything or anyone; that's cowardly. i don't want to be a coward.

i'm trying everyday. i'm working hard. isn't it enough?

i just feel lost in all of this.

i really don't know what is what and who to believe in.

i'm feeling rather distressed.

i don't feel good.